FLY FIREFLY

To fly was to be born again, 

I'd gone searching for adventure,

and I found myself....

I was lookin for somethin to thrill me,

I went high, and then low, and then high again,

I found myself breathless n gasping for air....

that knotty feeling is beginning to fill me,

I try n resist it but I know it's a lost battle,

I revel in the defeat, I know it's not fair

but the truth is that

I live in the feeling that kills me...

I start a journey on earth n it takes me to paradise,

somewhere in the background, I hear a warning bell

tinkling ceaselessly n telling me..

"you're being foolish...pay attention n be wise..

you re on the road to hell"

but I dont want to listen to what reason has to say

I dont want to go

and I dont know how I can stay...

the thoughts that crowd my empty mind,

tell me I can get the best view

if I decide to be blind,

I need strength

to resist temptation,

but something tells me

in weakness lies my salvation...

I know this can't be true,

I know its only my imagination

but that immeasurable feeling of being alive again,

brings to mind a ME I once knew,

n it overshadows all reason,

fades out any attempt at determination

will this be my down fall?

will this being alive finally kill me?

well, I guess I'll find out once and for all,

if it's written in the stars,

it's inevitable as my destiny,

N I know I can't forget the pain n I can't dim the scars,

N I know that wanting this has to be crazy

that's the whole irony...

I can see crystal clear n yet my sight's all hazy

If it's meant to be then, who am I

to try n stop it

If die I must…what the heck then...

what a way to die!